Life with Greyson and Fynnlee – 3 Months


Everyone told me that each day gets a little better.  They were right.  Holy geez…these Beans are so much fun right now!


I know, I know.  Shut up.  How are 12 week old babies fun?  They are!  They laugh, and coo and speak their own little Bean language.  I was told by someone smarter then me to mimic their sounds and I’ve been doing just that.  Greyson likes to “Oooooo, Oooooo, Oooooo”…like a monkey.  So I do that.  And Fynnlee likes to squeal and yell “ACK!”  So I do that.

I sound like a lunatic but I don’t care. They think I’m hilarious.

They’re also grabbing all kinds of things (my hair, my shirt, my fingers) and kicking up a storm.  They will play under the activity mat for a loooooooong time, talking to Mr. Sunshine and swatting at Mr. Frog. (old picture, same concept)


They love to lay around naked (well, in a diaper…I have my limits)…and have a dance party.


They are such a perfect compliment to each other.  Fynnlee is the Yin to Greyson’s Yang.



Unofficial weight – 13 lbs

Unofficial length – 24 inches

Size 1 diapers.  Size 0-3 clothes (some 3-6 depending on the brand)

The race is on to catch up to Fynnlee!  He is currently just as long as she is but he’s behind her in weight by about a pound or so.

I die over this kid. He is so stinkin adorable.  And he looks like such a big boy in his bumbo…<sniff>


Mister has traded in his chicken legs for some deliciously chunky thighs.  And his hair is growing back.  He looks like he’s headed to college in this picture.



We put him down around 7ish (drowsy but awake) and most of the time, he’s asleep within 10 minutes.  But this child will entertain himself in his crib for up to an hour before crying out of boredom.  He wakes up anywhere from midnight to 2:30 to eat but he sucks down a bottle and is back in the crib within 15 minutes.  He’s back up again between 4-5 and generally is not a fan of going back to sleep afterwards.  We typically get a 30-45 minute nap in the morning and afternoon and one big 2-3 hour one mid day.

So not too shabby overall.  At the time this post went to press, we had a solid 7-4:30 nights sleep.  I can’t complain about that!



We made the switch from Newborn to Infant formula around week 11 and it was pretty seamless.  Greyson will consume around 30 – 35 oz of formula in a day.  I’m no longer feeding him at regular intervals.  He lets us know when he’s hungry by getting fussy and screaming for his food.  It’s generally every 2-3 hours.  But our little guy is putting on some serious weight and all of this chowing down is helping him to fill out.  And catch up to his sister.  He’s no longer my little peanut.

Big fan of shark week.

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We had our evaluation with The Alliance for Infants and Toddlers and Greyson qualified for treatment with a mild case of Torticollis.  Developmentally, this was the only thing of concern for the therapist which is a great sign.

So we meet with a fabulous Physical Therapist once a week and she gives us stretches and suggestions for treatment.  Most of what I’m doing for him now is positioning him so he has to look away from the direction he favors.  For example, I make sure he’s on the far left side of his crib so that he has to turn his head to the right to see his mobile (he favors the left side).  And we do some positioning that will give him a gentle stretch on that tight side.


I’ve already seen marked improvement in just 2 weeks.  I’m so thankful that this program exists!

This little boy has completely stolen my heart.  He has the most delightful personality and remains the sweetest, most agreeable child I know.  That’s not to say he doesn’t have fussy times but I completely forget about them as soon as he flashes his signature smile.  We have special little games we play and I love that I can get him to laugh.  He has changed so much over this past month.  I swear, every morning when he wakes up, he’s gotten bigger!  And more handsome.


Greyson Paul, you are simply amazing.



Unofficial weight – 14.5 lbs

Unofficial length – 24 inches

Can squeeze into Size 1 diapers but Size 2 are going to be the norm within the next week.  Busting out of the 0-3m & mostly into 3-6m clothes

Seriously… I can’t even take the sweetness of this little girl.


That’s right, I said sweet.  She’s still spunky but there is a new sweetness to our little Miss and it just makes her even more irresistible.


Fynnlee also handled the transition from Newborn to Infant formula without issue.  She’s consumes about the same amount as Greyson, sometimes a little less.  Girlfriend has chosen sleep over eating at night and her naps are often twice as long as his.  We give her a mix of 4 and 6 oz at a clip.

Soooooooooooo big!  Ugh, those cheeks are so pinchable.


We love to joke about Fynnlee’s size but honestly, she’s pretty darn perfect.  She’s solid but she’s not super pudgy.  We just tend to compare her to Greyson, who is on the lanky side.  That belly…it’s fabulous!


Hates the bumbo, loves to sit up (and watch TV).  She is killing it in tummy time too.

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Fynn is a champion sleeper.  She loves her naps and will crash for 3-4 hours in the afternoon.  And we had our first solid 10 hour overnight stretch a few days shy of 12 weeks and she’s been sleeping through the night ever since.  She is the happiest baby in the morning.  Honestly, this is how she wakes up every day.


And though she be but little, she is fierce…”

Forget that I thought that quote was from Beyonce, (embarrassing yet true) but wow does it sum up Fynnlee!  She is the perfect combination of determined, spirited and charming.  She will wrap you around her little finger in a split second. She wants to be independent but not at the cost of being all by herself. She does not want to miss out on anything! I can’t wait to watch her grow and see that little personality blossom even more.  Oh, this one is going to keep us on our toes.


Fynnlee Ann, you are the little girl I’ve always dreamed of.


Back to work

After 12 amazing weeks at home with my Beans, it is time to come back to work.  I am so fortunate that I got to spend so much time with them in these early days.  And I’m even more fortunate that their daycare is right at my office.  It’s a Bright Horizons care center and the staff is fantastic.  They made the transition back to the working world pretty easy on me.

Do my children look like they’re suffering?

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They send us daily updates on the Beans and I get to pop in and visit a couple of times during the day.  All of the babies in their care are very content and happy.  In all of the times I’ve stopped by, there is rarely any crying!

They read books and make art projects and take trips outside in the stroller.  We made a great choice with Bright Horizons!

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Crib Transition

Jerry We decided to move the babies out of our room into their nursery around 10 weeks.  Up to that point, they had slept in their rock n plays right next to my bed where I wanted them to stay forever.  So we kept to our bedtime routine of bath, swaddle, bottle, shush and placed them into their cribs.  Turn on their new mobiles and within 10 minutes, they were out.

What the hell was I worried about?


My babies are rockstars.  This is crazy easy…


BAM!  They woke up about every 2 hours for the first 2-3 nights.  And then it took forever to get them back to sleep.  WHAT HAVE WE DONE!?

I’m happy to report that we stuck it out and by the 4th night, they were sleeping soundly with one wake up a piece.  Jerry was right (don’t tell him I said that)…they love their cribs.  And by the 10th night, Fynnlee slept from 7-5 and Greyson from 7-2:30.  We are learning that babies need an adjustment period and we just need to have some patience.  They will eventually figure it out.

3 Month Photo Dump

BFFs.  She suddenly has to be touching him if they’re laying next to each other.  #heartexploding


We are never going to let the babies sleep in our bed.  Ever.

Well, maybe just in the mornings.  For extra snuggles…


Feeling crabby


Hanging with Oliver on the 4th of July.


I know I’m biased but these are the most beautiful babies that ever existed.


Yep, he’s flipping me off over this outfit.  I don’t care…they’re adorable.


Pants are for suckers.


They’re liking their car seats a lot more these days…makes getting out and about for dinner or shopping much easier!

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We selfie.


Jerry’s soccer number on Grey’s Pirates shirt.


I love our little family.


I will never say it enough.  These two are the best thing I’ve ever done.


Life with Greyson & Fynnlee – 2 Months

I hate to sound like a cliché, but TIME…SLOW DOWN!  The Beans are two months old.  And they are just the most amazing babies that ever lived.

While weeks 6 and 7 were rough (so. many. tears…theirs and mine), weeks 8 and 9 have been delightful!

Our salty little Fynnlee has turned the corner from a crankapotomus to a smiley, cooing, joyful little girl.  Before, I would put her down and there would be intense bouts of screaming. Girlfriend would yell for as long as you would let her and even when you picked her up, the yelling would often continue.  Didn’t matter what contraption we stuck her in, she was miserable.  I’m chalking it up to growing pains (and the six week sleep regression I read about).  Currently, she will entertain herself for 15-20 minutes before asking for some attention.  She loves looking out the window at clouds and is obsessed with mobiles.  She is content a lot of the time and I’m happy to report that my anxiety level has come down to manageable proportions.

She may be a diva but when she gives me this smile, all is forgiven.

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Greyson has always been a lovely baby.  For the most part he’s calm and quiet and is super happy to chill.  Weeks 6 and 7 brought a slight disruption to that demeanor but it was never miserable.  What the past 2 weeks brought us was tons of smiles and coos.  He definitely knows us know and will stare in your eyes forever.  He laughs and grunts and wiggles all the time.  He has started to prefer to be held but it’s nothing that is unmanageable and he will still chill out in the bouncer at times.  I bought this sling and it’s been one of my favorite baby things.  Greyson will nap in it and I love that I can keep him close and still have my hands free.  As we haven’t done much nursing, I like the extra bonding I get with my favorite little guy.

Seriously, those cheeks.

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Fist bump


2 month doctor’s appointment – 6/22/15

“This is gonna suck, Fynnlee”


Weight: 1 month: 6lbs 12oz (0%) 2 months: 9 lbs 10 oz (6 %)
Height:  1 month: 19.5 inches (0 %) 2 months:  21 inches (1 %)
Head circumference: 40 cm (87 %)
Wearing:  0-3 month clothes, Size 1 diapers

My little guy gained almost 3 pounds in a month!  I’m so proud of him.  He’s gonna catch up to his sister before we know it.  He no longer feels like a feather when you hold him.


Weight:  1 month: 8lbs 12oz (38%)  2 months:  11lbs 6oz (66%)
Height:  1 month: 20.25 inches (14 %)  2 months 22.25 inches (58%)
Head circumference:  39 cm (83% percentile)
Wearing: 0-3 month clothes, Size 1 diapers

Baby girl is solid!  She’s officially a baby now, not a newborn.  Ugh, kills me.

The doctor’s appointment was uneventful with one exception.  Our little G man has a tendency to turn his head to he left (his left).  I noticed this the first week he came home and hoped that as he grew, he would flip from one side to the other.  No such luck.  Long story short…we’re looking at what is called TorticollisEssentially Torticollis is a condition in which the neck muscles cause the head to turn or rotate to the side. And treating torticollis that is present at birth involves stretching the shortened neck muscle. Passive stretching and positioning are used in infants and small children. In passive stretching, something is used to hold the body part in a certain position. This could be a device such as a strap, a person, or something else. These treatments are often successful, especially if they are started within 3 months of birth. ~ source

We had a spinal x-ray to rule out spine issues and it came back normal.  Fortunately, Allegheny County has a wonderful service through the Alliance for Infants and Toddlers, which offers early intervention and will assist us with physical therapy.  Greyson may have to wear a neck brace for a bit or a helmet (as the constant left side head turn is causing a flat head situation). But the bottom line is that this is not life threatening and he’ll eventually be just fine.


Well I made it 8 weeks.  And now, I’m officially finished with breastfeeding. I took a week to wean myself to spare the intense pain of going cold turkey. I stopped pumping for a week and just gradually cut down on my nursing sessions with Fynn.  We had our last nursing session on her 2 month birthday.


I shed a couple of tears and then gave myself a pep talk on making it as long as we did.  I’m proud I was able to provide breastmilk to my babies in their early days…and I know they will continue to thrive on formula.

Greyson has been an eating machine, sometimes drinking 8 oz in a sitting.  I don’t know where he puts it!  He very rarely spits up afterwards so it’s all being digested. Most meals are 4-5 oz though.  Fynnlee was nursing for 15 minutes or will take 4-5 oz from a bottle.  And they’re eating 6-7 times a day.  Both babies tolerate Emfamil Newborn formula very well and our pediatrician had the formula Rep send us 2 cases of Newborn and Infant formula.  Score!

Bottles for days!



Sleep is getting better.  Fynnlee is sleeping 6, 7 or even 8 hour stretches over night and Greyson will give us a good 5 to 6 hours at a clip.  I know as he gains weight, he’ll catch up to her and I am hoping we’re down to one nightly wakeup by the time I return to work.  They take 30-45 minute morning and afternoon naps during the day with one long 2-3 hour nap mid day.  For their long stretch, I put them in the rock and play in our room just like they sleep at night and I’ve noticed they sleep much, much better than if they are chilling in the living room.

Bedtime is between 7-8 and our routine is becoming very effective.  Bath, swaddle, shush and white noise.  They are still sleeping in our room but we’ll be moving them to the nursery within the next two weeks (Lord, give me strength).


We’re using up the Huggies we stockpiled and then we’re never buying them again. The Kirkland brand diapers have been pretty decent and I’m still a fan of Pampers and Up & Up.

We are down to 3-4 major poops a day.  This is pretty nice!  Lots and lots of wet diapers and we’ve found the Huggies absorb liquid just fine. Both Jerry and I got pooped on this past month.  A couple of diaper explosions and one situation of pooping mid-diaper change.  Gross.

Road Trip!

Babies took their first trip just before their two month birthday.  We flew on a direct flight from Pittsburgh to Florida and I’m happy to report that they were rockstars!  The flight down to FLA wasn’t full so they could sleep in their carseats next to us.  But we had to hold them on the way home.  They slept for 85% of the time.

And we’re off!


White noise on the plane is a godsend!


Filler ‘er up before takeoff!


I’ll do a separate post on our flying experience.

Aunt Steph and the Grandparents were very excited to see the Beans so they dressed accordingly.


Chilling Poolside

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Jerry’s parents kept the babies in their room overnight so we could get some much needed sleep.  It was amazing!!  The trip was way too short but it was so great to spend some QT with family.

2 Month Photo Dump





We hate tummy time

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Practicing sleeping with his head turned to the other side


Daily Twin Time

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Big Girl in the Bumbo


Every day I am more amazed at these two little beings.  I love being their Mom and I can’t wait to see what Month 3 has in store for us!



Life with Greyson & Fynnlee – 6 weeks

Jerry had to go to Atlanta for his national sales conference so the Beans got to spend 4+ days with their Aunt Stephanie and GG (Jerry’s grandma).  I’m trying to figure out how to move them in with us permanently!

GG spent hours and hours feeding and cuddling our little nuggets.


And Steph was the queen “shusher” as we had a week with some fussy Beans.


We took some walks in the ‘hood, made homemade pizza and basically just loved on babies all day.


We made sure to send Daddy pictures of their OOTD (outfits of the day) as he was pretty sad without his little peanuts.

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We survived but we’re sooooo happy that he’s home!

The past two weeks have been pretty challenging. We breezed through the itty bitty newborn stage the first month where they basically just slept and ate. I felt pretty much like superwoman.  Entering month 2 has been a reality check.  Not to discount that we still have pretty easy babies…but they are just requiring a lot more attention now that they are awake for longer stretches.

The frustrating thing is that there isn’t a whole lot you can do with babies this age.  They still can’t really engage in play but they’re no longer content to just chill out in the swing or mamaroo.  We have a lot of fussing going on and they want to be held a lot.  This can be a struggle as there is only one of me during the day.  And they haven’t really taken to the Moby wrap or baby carrier yet.

Not to say these 2 weeks have been bad.  They have just called for some readjustment. Such is life with babies, so I’m told.  And as my BFF pointed out…they are teaching me patience, which I’m in desperate need of learning.


Currently still nursing Fynnlee at night and pumping for Greyson during the day.  Every single day I make the decision to stop both.  Our bout with Thrush, while gone for the most part, essentially shredded my nipples.  I’m also dealing with one super boob that accounts for 80% of my milk production and a slacker boob that just can’t get it together.  Super boob produces 3-4 oz per pumping session while slacker boob only gives me about 1/2 –1 oz.  It’s really annoying.  But I just can’t quit yet.  I’m not sure why because I’m not all rah rah “BREAST IS BEST!!”.  I’m totally fine with formula.  There is just something about feeding my kids breast milk while I can that makes me feel good as a Mom.  Also, it’s helping me shed my baby weight (if we’re going to be totally honest) and I don’t really have a lot of energy to exercise yet.  I’ve definitely decided to quit by the time I return to work

So Greyson is eating 4 oz of something 6-7 times per day and Fynnlee is taking in around 6 oz 5-6 times per day.  She definitely eats more during the day than at night while he’s pretty consistent 24/7.


We are working on establishing a nap and a night time routine.  I found that naps are really sporadic in the morning.  We get 20-30 minutes here and there.  And Fynnlee has pretty much determined that naps are really stupid.  So I’ve been putting them both down in the early afternoon, in our bedroom, in the rock n plays…and they’re out for 3-4 hours!  Yay!

Bedtime has been working out well too.  I give Fynnlee a bath around 7, nurse her and she is out by 7:30.  She’s been sleeping 4-5 hour stretches and it’s been fabulous!  Greyson goes down a bit later and we’ve found they’re both waking up around 12:30/1:00.  They’re up again around 4 and then up for the day around 7.

Jerry takes the 1:00 am feeding with Greyson while I nurse Fynn and then I try to let him sleep through the 4:00 shift.  We’re still a pretty kick ass team!

6 week post partum checkup

Blood pressure 118/72
Weight loss – I gained 38 lbs during pregnancy and have lost 44 thus far.  I have 4 more to go to hit my pre treatment weight and then want to lose an additional 10 to get to my “feel great weight”.

Everything checked out and now life returns to normal!  No exercise restrictions.  No heavy lifting restrictions.  No more lovenox injections!!  Whew.  And they are hooking me up with a Mirena IUD so no more Beans for us!  If I were 32 as opposed to 42, I would want 5 more babies.  But the universe and it’s master plan gave us 2 perfect ones so I’m very content with that!

6 week photo dump

Post bath…so fresh, so clean.  Seriously, these two…

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Adventures in baby wearing.


Gah! Baby bellies.  I just want to eat them up!


working on our fitness


Tummy time is stupid

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My little prepster


Salty Fynn…Sweet Fynn

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Double bouncers…these contraptions are lifesavers!


These two miracles are truly heaven sent.  They have turned my life upside down and it’s the best thing ever.

Life with Greyson and Fynnlee – 1 month

Our little Beans are a month old!  Excuse me for a second while I curl up in the corner and cry my eyes out.

This past month has been quite an adventure. Lots and lots of highs and a few lows.  These little people are coming into their personalities and it’s been my greatest gift getting to know them.  They are pretty much the bestest things ever.


If you google the sweetest baby on the planet, you will get 10,000 pictures of Greyson Paul.  As long as he’s fed, changed and warm, you won’t even know he’s in the room.  He’s very content to just chill out and observe the world around him.  Fynnlee is our little drama queen. You will always know she is in the room.  I read that with twins, you can’t feel too guilty paying attention to one baby more than the other because inevitably, “the squeaky wheel gets the grease”.  Well, Fynnlee Ann is our squeaky wheel. I definitley suffer from a bit of the Mom guilt…it’s hard not to when you feel like you can’t reward the “good” baby.  I just tell him not to worry…I’m going to buy him the car and Fynn will get a bicycle and a bus pass.  I do make sure to fit in extra snuggles and one on one time when she’s in a milk coma.  It’s all a balancing act, I guess.


Managing the day to day operations with twins can be tricky.  Especially on the days when Jerry is at work and I’m flying solo.  I would say most of the time, they cut me some slack.  One baby sleeps while I feed the other and it only happens once or twice a day where we have 2 screaming children at the same time. If Jerry is home, we divide and conquer.  If not, I channel my inner octopus and do the best I can.



Feeding these two muchkins is a constantly changing process.  I’m still nursing Fynnlee and pumping for Greyson but we are supplementing about 50% of the feedings with formula for both.  It’s not ideal but it is what it is.  I’m happy they’re both getting some breast milk but they are both demanding much more at feedings and I just can’t keep up.  There are things I could be doing to try boost my supply but honestly, I don’t have the energy in me to work on it.  I had some guilt over all of it but then slapped myself upside the head.  These babies are healthy and happy and growing like little weeds.  That is all that matters.

Fynn nurses for a good 20 minutes or eats 4 ounces of formula.  Greyson will eat anywhere from 2-4 ounces of pumped milk or formula depending on his mood.  We try to get as much food into them before bedtime and overnight because they definitely sleep better when their bellies are full.

We have pretty much every bottle known to man but the ones these kiddos prefer is the 3 for $3 gerber ones I found at Target.  Take that Tommee Tippee and your $8 single bottles!  The flow is really good for both babies and I don’t feel like I’m drowning them at feedings.  Sometimes simple is best!


Yesterday, I noticed a bunch of white spots on Fynnlee’s tongue. It’s also been very painful for me to nurse her or pump over the last couple of days (I just chalked it up to standard sore nipples). After consulting Dr. Google, it became very evident that we both had Thrush.  Yay!  We called the pediatrician who gave me a prescription Nystatin for Fynn. And I’m to apply Lotromin to my nipples to clear up the fungus (yep, the same stuff they use for athletes foot and jock itch).  I’m now boiling the hell out of anything that might come in contact with her mouth or my nipples and I’m hoping we can knock this thing out quickly.  I really wanted the babies to have at least 1/2 of their meals from breastmilk until I went back to work but I don’t know if I’m gonna make it.


I’m going to jinx myself, but I think these Beans are pretty good sleepers. They nap a lot during the day and for the most part, they go down pretty easily at night.  But the bottom line is…they’re babies and they are not consistent. We have good days/nights and bad ones.

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Boppys in the pack n play is our favorite way to nap.


The “Sound Sleeper” app set to vacuum saves our sanity.


5 to 8 pm is typically the worst part of the day.  They are pretty fussy and just want to be held and eat.  So we feed them as much as we can stuff in them and have been successful over the last week of getting a good nap out of them so we can eat dinner.  We need to start establishing a serious bedtime routine within the next couple of weeks…right now, we’re just winging it.

Overnight they sleep from 9-10 to 12-1.  After a 20 minute feed, they go back down until 3-4.  Greyson sometimes wakes up around 2:00 if he hasn’t eaten enough.  But longer sleep stretches will come.  They are still teeny babies and are trying to figure things out just as we are.


We have tried 3 brands of diapers.  Pampers Swaddlers, Honest brand and Target’s Up & Up.  The Pampers and Target brand are definitely the best. Super absorbent and zero leaks. I’m really not too impressed with the Honest diapers…they’re cute but we’ve had some leaks.

Enough about poop…


Look at him.  I die…he’s so perfect.


1 month stats

Weight  birth weight:  5lbs 4oz  1 month: one month: 6lbs 12oz (0 percentile)
Height  at birth:  17.75 inches  1 month: 19.5 inches (0 percentile)
Head circumference : 38.5 cm (87th percentile)
Wearing:  Newborn clothes, newborn diapers
Nicknames:  Pipsqueak, lovebug, GP, sweet pea, chicken legs
Likes:  Advent pacifiers, Wubbanub, Fisher price swing, snuggles, when Mom sings “The Gambler”.
Dislikes:  Diaper changes, baths, being cold

I’m not gonna lie…my little G Man is kind of a hot mess at the moment. He has a wicked case of baby acne in addition to cradle cap.  Poor little nugget…his beautiful face is all splotchy.  It really seems to flare up after he’s eaten.  Our pediatrician assures me that it’s not painful and is super common.  Just leave it alone and he will out grow it.

This little guy has seen so many changes over the past 2 weeks.  He’s now making eye contact all the time  I’m getting faint smiles and coos and my heart just melts into a giant puddle. His tiny hand can put your finger in a death grip and his neck strength is really improving.

There is zero chance he’s not gonna be a Mama’s boy…just sayin.


I swear this little girl gets more beautiful every day.  Those cheeks and that hair…

1 month stats

Weight  birth weight:  6bs 7oz  1 month:  one month: 8lbs 12oz (38th percentile)
Height  at birth:  19.5 inches  1 month: 20.25 inches (14th percentile)
Head circumference:  36.25 cm (44th percentile)
Wearing:  Mix of Newborn and 0-3 month clothes, newborn diapers
Nicknames:  Fynn, Squish, Squeaky wheel, chubby cheeks, Toots
Likes: Eating, 4 Moms Rockaroo, being held, grunting
Dislikes:  Diaper changes, being hungry

Every day with Fynnlee is an adventure.  She is the life of the party and loves the drama.  Her favorite thing is to get out attention with loud “WHAAAA!”…and the second you go to rescue her, she flashes the biggest, gummy grin known to man.  She’s got us figured out, our smart cookie.  I knew she was going to be a spitfire before she was even born…and I’m so glad I was right.

She is absolutely irresistible and she knows it.

While I feel like we’re doing really well, that’s not to say I don’t have moments every day where I just want to scream “Stop crying!” or “I don’t know what you want!”.  There are many times when I’m annoyed, lonely, frustrated and I just need to take a breath and regroup.  I find that by the end of the day, I’m on sensory overload.  I desperately need a good 30-45 minutes of quiet time.  And my favorite form of “quiet time” is a long walk with Jacob and Howard Stern.

I read this awesome article on ScaryMommy…8 things I wish I’d known about having twins.  And I always read this last part when I’m feeling a little overwhelmed.

You have been chosen, super woman. You were blessed in this life to bring two warriors into this world. It won’t be easy but that doesn’t mean that it won’t be the most rewarding adventure that was entrusted to you. You are in charge of your greatness and theirs. There will be a moment that you could spill open with radiance because your life is so whole and you wouldn’t want to change it for anything. Acknowledge the joy and hope of it all as each joyous and hopeful inch comes your way. And know that you are a rockstar. You’ve got this. Own that cape, baby.

I can’t wait to see what the next month has in store for us, Beans!  Every day is better than the day before.

Newborn Photos

When the Beans were 10 days old, we had the amazingly talented Melissa Lucci come to our house to take newborn photos for us.



She spent almost 3 hours with us and I am so thrilled with the results.


Here are some of my favorites of the day.


Baby feet are the best….




How sweet is Greyson?



And Fynnlee is so squishable.




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Those of you who know him, will be amazed at the pictures of Jacob.  He’s petrified of cameras.



Long lens and a sneak attack…nailed it!


Thank you Melissa, for these beautiful images of our new family.


Post Partum Recovery

My little squishes are 3 weeks old!  How is that possible?

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That means I gave birth 3 weeks ago.  So how am I doing?  Pretty freaking great!  The actual recovery from the surgery was a little rough for the first few days.  The best advice I received in the hospital was to stay on top of the pain meds.  It made a huge difference.  I tried to be superwoman and tell them I didn’t need them.  But I got a little lecture from my OB on how much faster my body would heal if I gave it a chance.

My incision has healed nicely.  I’m gonna have a little scar around my bikini line but my bikini-wearing days are far behind me so I’m not too worried.  The steri strips have started to fall off and I think they should be gone by the end of the week.

I gained 38 lbs during my pregnancy.  As of this morning, I’ve lost 37 of those lbs.  Thank you, breastfeeding.  I still have another 10 lbs of pre-preggo, fertility treatment weight to lose and I’m hoping once I’m allowed to be more active, that will take care of itself.  I’m really looking forward to exercising again…surprisingly.  I may have dropped the pounds but everything is very soft and flabby.  My belly feels like a deflated beach ball.  It’s really weird.

I haven’t dealt with too much post partum depression, and I’m super thankful for that. I do have moments of spontaneous tears but they’re definitely happy ones.  These two littles are too much for my heart to take sometimes.

no make-up and uber tired…but it’s the best kind of exhausted.


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From what I had read, post partum bleeding is like the heaviest period of your life.  I’m not sure if it’s because I had a c-section or I’ve just always had light periods but it wasn’t really too bad after the first 2 days.  What it is…is loooong.  I’m still having bouts of spotting and full on bleeding.  It’s tapering off but wow.  It’s annoying.

I will say…maxipads have come a long way!  Holy geez.  I haven’t really worn pads since junior high school.  I was pleasantly surprised that they no longer resemble adult diapers.  They now are composed of super absorbent foam that can hold like 17 gallons of fluid.  Buy the Always Infinity pads.  You’re welcome.

I had also read that the first time you poop after birth is just as traumatic at the birth itself.  It’s not…it’s worse.  After 9 long days of taking colace and milk of magnesia as often as allowed, my body finally cooperated.  My bathroom looked like a crime scene.  And the 2 times (yes, you read that right…2 times) I’ve managed to go since then haven’t been much better.  I know…drink more water, eat more fiber, prune juice, flax seeds, coffee, take some Miralax.  Spare me, doesn’t help.

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So, overall…I feel pretty much like my old self.  My body has completely amazed me during this whole process.  First it grew these beautiful babies and then it snapped back to shape pretty quickly to allow me to care for them.

It’s basically been the best 3 weeks…ever


Our Birth Story

I’m sorry, yet thrilled, to say that our Birth Story is pretty boring.  I guess it was just the overall theme of my pregnancy.  I am certainly not complaining!

I was pretty against posting bare bellied pictures of myself online. But the massive girth of my bump was too damn impressive to keep all to myself!

38 weeks, 1 day of cooking these Beans.  And my belly button never popped out!  But my skin was screaming for mercy.

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Our c-section was scheduled for Thursday 4/30 at 11:00.  We were to report to Labor & Delivery at 8:30 for pre-op bloodwork, paperwork and general settling in.  Shockingly, I managed to sleep pretty well.  My last night of uninterrupted sleep for a looooong time.  I think my body knew it needed to rest.

We were smart enough (actually, Jerry’s Mom was smart enough) to take one last preggo picture before we left. Today we become Mom & Dad!


Of course we hit traffic on the way to the hospital.  There was an accident on the highway that forced Jerry to take a rather inventive detour.  We were only 10 minutes late checking into L&D.

They didn’t waste any time taking us back to pre-op.  It was a big open room with 4 bays and we could hear a Mom cuddling her brand new baby right across from us. At one point the baby cried and Jerry and I just looked at each other and teared up.  That would be us soon!

We had two nurses assigned to our care and they were both fantastic.  They took my blood pressure, temperature and other vitals, along with 87 tubes of blood.  I changed into my pretty little gown and we patiently waited our turn.  The Anesthesia team stopped by to explain the spinal and my doctor stopped by to check in with us and within no time at all, it was time to head back to the OR.

I had been warned there would be a lot of people in the OR and they weren’t lying!  Holy geez.  My doctor, 2 OB residents, the Anesthesiologist plus 2 residents, a nurse anesthetist, my 2 nurses, 2 nurses for the babies, 2 pediatricians and the NICU team.  All for our little Beans!

**  So, I guess I should mention that while I was really excited, I was never really nervous.  Which is not like me at all!  I felt very calm and really trusted my doctors and hospital team.  I’m convinced that having a relaxed attitude really lead to an excellent birth experience for me.

They administered my spinal and seriously, it was no big deal.  The nurse anesthetist stood in front of me and talked to me the whole time.  I was instructed to round out my back (which wasn’t all that easy with my enormous belly!) and try to relax.  I felt a little pinch in my back (less painful than having blood drawn) and then nothing.  They had me lay down and got me all situated with a curtain in front of me so I couldn’t see anything.

I think the thing I was dreading the most was the catheter.  Really?!  I wasn’t nervous about being sliced open but I was scared of the catheter?!  I’m so weird.  Anyway, it was also no big deal.  I didn’t feel anything. And the next thing I knew, they went to get Jerry.  It was go time!

There were a lot of people distracting me.  I was thankful for Jerry and the nurse talking to me a lot.  We talked about baby names and guessed how big they’d be.  And then I heard “Here is Baby A!” and Fynnlee let out a huge cry.  They announced the time (11:46 am) and Jerry and I just listened to her scream.  It was the best sound I had ever heard.  Lots of tears from me too…she was here.  “Here is Baby B!”…more crying from Greyson at 11:47 am.  And just like that…in 2 minutes, we had our family.  Jerry left me for a few minutes to go check them out.  I found out Fynnlee weighed 6lbs 7oz and was 19.5 inches long.  Her APGAR scores were 8 and 9.  Greyson was 5lbs 4oz and was 17 inches long.  His APGAR scores also looked great at 8 and 9.  We had two big healthy babies and my heart burst into a million pieces.

The nurse informed me they looked so good that the NICU team and the pediatrician left the OR.  And then they brought them over to meet me.  Our first family portrait!


It seemed like no time at all and they were finished stitching me up.  Things got a little fuzzy when they wheeled me back to recovery so I don’t have too many details.  But I do remember the nurse bringing them into our bay and I finally got a really good look at them.  They were the most perfect, beautiful babies I had ever seen.  Greyson Paul on the left and Fynnlee Ann on the right.


They did so tests on them and we discovered that Greyson’s blood sugar was a low.  It needs to be at 40 and it was 34.  The “stork nurse” picked him up and said “You have 10 minutes to try and feed him to get his blood sugar up or he’s going to the NICU”.

“But I don’t know what the hell I’m doing…and neither does he.”


Needless to say, Greyson failed to latch and get any sort of nurishment, so off he went to the NICU.  I knew he was in the best hands but I was pretty upset.

He ended up staying in the NICU for 48 hours.  His blood sugar kept dropping and they couldn’t regulate his temperature.  I was hooked up to an IV and a cathetar, so Jerry went to the NICU every 3 hours to feed and cuddle with him while I hung out in the room with Fynnlee.


He finally joined his family on Saturday afternoon and I can’t even put into words how good it felt to have us all together.  I spent a good part of the day snuggling with my love bug.

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We were really ready to go home Sunday morning.  As soon as the nurse came in to take my vitals at 7:00am, I started suggesting an early release (they usually release patients starting at 11 am).  She pushed our paperwork through and we got our little babies ready to take their first car ride.


Home sweet home…and time for the real fun to begin!